Hey, it's been a bit since I updated this thing.

Where do I even begin with this blog entry? Well, for starters, it's 2025 now. Which is relieving to me, since I had an awful 2024 with all the shit I witnessed. My grandfather passed away, my mother's health got a bit worse (she's fine don't worry), people are starting getting more toxic, just terrible shit has been happening left to right. Aye-yai-yai, what a headache.

Speaking of headaches, my mental health hasn't been getting that much better recently. Let me explain.

I have been facing a lot of self doubt, anxiety, and just lots of stress in general. I've been going through so much stuff, and I've been constantly calling my work garbage for no reason even though it's not too bad. I keep doing this to myself for some reason, and I am not sure. It might be because whenever I see something cool, or something that is well put together, I always think it looks way better than what I could ever do despite me getting inspiration from it and such. Another possibility is that it could be a combination of past regrets and memories of shit i used to do as a kid.

I just don't know how I can get this taken care of, but I'm trying to get my mental health into better shape by taking a break from a couple of things and just taking it slow. I might also be getting a psychiatrist soon, but I am not so sure when that will be happening. I just hope that someday this will all end and I will live a happier life, or at least not be as depressed n' other stuff, like how I am now, but I am going to get this taken care of one way or another.

Phew, alright, now with the dark stuff out of the way, let's talk about some of the positives. I'll keep them short and sweet.

• First, I saw the new Pretty Blood episode (Elma, Part 1) which was uploaded 2 weeks ago. I thought it was great to see this series be back once again after a while. My brain-rot for this series lives on.
• Second, I have recently made a secondary YT channel. It will mainly be for things like music, gameplay, art, or anything miscellaneous. I have also made it because I want to take a break from "videopastas" for a while, since they have been draining my mental health as well, but I won't go too deep on it.
• Third, I played through the entirety of Charlie Murder (steam) on separate days of this month, and finally beat the game. It felt good to revisit a blast from the past once more.

I can't really think of any other positives right now, but that's the major ones I can think of really.

Other than that, yeah, I haven't really been doing the best as of recently. I am just hoping that 2025 will be a better year for me, and that things will finally be right for once. Or at least end up mostly becoming positive. Whatever happens, I'm still gonna be breathing n' posting for as long as I can. Deep breathing and practicing shall lead me to wherever I may be next on this journey.

Thank you for sticking around and supporting my content, it means a lot to me, and I hope you all stay hydrated while also having a nice day, and I'm sorry if I stress any of you out with my constant negativity, or anything like that.

...also, god, I can't wait for project turboblast, it lowkey looks fun as hell.